I LOVE THEE SO THAT, MAUGRE ALL THY PRIDE
NOR WIT NOR REASON CAN MY PASSION HIDE.

OLIVIA IS PASSIONATE!

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i miss you..

the higher your hopes, the harder your fall
and the more painful it gets..

what right did i have to believe that i would be in the top 5
all i did was cause myself to be hurt just a little deeper..
i don't want to see
but i can't stop myself from wanting to be a part of your life..

you still make me worry
you know?

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im stressed.. *cries* really..
-pouts-
[haven't done that in ages]
i want macadamien cookies!
opps! ><>
this is an entry with absolutely NO relation with what's happening at this current moment
just in case anyone's wondering why it sound so senseless

tenderness is not a reliable platform to base one's judgement on
like a cool breeze sweeping past.
it lifts you up
lets you feel light and allows you to fly
then.
all of a sudden its gone
and you fall hard onto the cold stone ground
yet the hurt comes not from the impact of the fall
but the impact of the realisation
that everything you once loved has failed you
your eyes open to the glorious truth
only god will never fail you

sincere thanks to you for calling.. ^^

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why is it that i care so much for someone that doesn't really deserve it. it feels bad. painful. it HURTS like crap!! argh! i feel cheated of time effort and feelings and its all because of you. why don't you just go away. wait. you are. i hate myself for not being able to let you go. i hate it so much. i want to scream but my parents are around. i want to throw a bottle of my frustration in to the sea but i don't want to harm the poor fishes. i want to just. just. walk away from EVERY SINGLE THING! but i can't bring myself to detach myself. you mean too much.. ARGH!!! my concern and efforts are not being recognised or appreciated so why in the whole wide world am i trying so freaking hard! this irritates me. a lot. shoots man!

i worry for so many people... why doesn't anyone worry about me...
Lord i need you.. cos' only you can give me full comfort and understanding..

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i wish and dream for loads of things.. really perfect-o things but i guess its because of that i don't get them.. sometimes, you wish really hard and pray really sincerely for certain stuff but you just don't get them yet others do. its hard not to feel a little bit jealous. =( you know what. i'm just going to focus and appreciate what God has given me and be happy about that! yeapp.

yesterday was a wonderful moment spent with yozz after not being able to go home with her for AGES! we really opened up about some stuff that had been bothering both of us, while eating chicken wings! + nuggets =)) heh. she was really happy and i was really touched till a point in time when i was seriously about to cry.. thank you yozz. for EVERYTHING. *hugs*

MTP was really short. the talk was 15 min! how short is that. but its quite cool and sng was surprisingly eloquent despite being a first-timer. -laughs- =)
thinking is hard work and it hurts the brain! but if that's going to be the only way to get my A, i'm going to do it.

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there will always be this significant date that i will remember. 3rd apr 06. we officially step down. actually, up till today, i was still not that sad yet. i guess reality hasn't really sunk in yet. yet today, as i wrote a letter to my vice-captain... i was overwhealmed with a sick feeling. a very sick stomach=bottomless pit kindof feeling which is not at all comforting. i'm so going to miss you guys...fooling around during training [ more of me watching you li'l children fool around] and slogging our hearts out during runs and footwork. actually its not that bad yar. heh.

take care my beloved team. thank you for putting in much effort and perseverence during the conpetitions. continue to strive hard in both CCA as well as studies yea?? jia youus!!! =)

yesterday i met weishan! [my dearest senior] while i was straightening in the library!! yays! then i was very unhappy cos' i didn't like straightening. she said,"why you like so bu gan yuan like that? -smiles-" " cos' im not. -pouts" then she proceeded to pat my head! =))) its been a long time since anyone did that and an even longer time since i saw her. weishan!!!! ^^

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