why is it that i care so much for someone that doesn't really deserve it. it feels bad. painful. it HURTS like crap!! argh! i feel cheated of time effort and feelings and its all because of you. why don't you just go away. wait. you are. i hate myself for not being able to let you go. i hate it so much. i want to scream but my parents are around. i want to throw a bottle of my frustration in to the sea but i don't want to harm the poor fishes. i want to just. just. walk away from EVERY SINGLE THING! but i can't bring myself to detach myself. you mean too much.. ARGH!!! my concern and efforts are not being recognised or appreciated so why in the whole wide world am i trying so freaking hard! this irritates me. a lot. shoots man!

i worry for so many people... why doesn't anyone worry about me...
Lord i need you.. cos' only you can give me full comfort and understanding..

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